FUCK EVERYTHING.

Too much drama lately.

it's over i couldn'y handle it anymore.
but why do i feel the need to die?
i don't like him the way he likes me.


why do i feel the need to die?
im so mad at him right now though.
so so so so so so so mad.

i think crying 5 times in one night is a record for me.

i miss the simple times.

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So everything is pretty much going back to normal now, thank god.
I don't know how much more I could take of him being mad at me.
I love him to death, that kid. I can't see him like he was, hurt.

But anyways, life has been sucking this far, I can't control anything.
Or at least I feel I can't control any thing.
But I'm hoping good things will come soon, because I can't take
much
more of this crap that I'm freaking getting out of my life. 

I feel like I'm waiting for "him" and I know I should not.
I can't hold onto that for too much longer, he doesn't want me.
And that is all I need have to function on.

I hurt him, I hurt him alot.


I should prolly just... ^{stop breathing.}

[	Current Mood	|	depressed	]
[	Current Music	|	Little Divotional- TBS	]

i need to fucking go home.
and by home i mean florida.
maine is not my home.

i've been crying everynight the past week about
all things that relate to florida.. especially one.
but i need to go, my ^life depends on it... i dont know
how much i can stand not being there anymore.

i feel so confused.

i can't contain myself.

[	Current Location	|	Home.	]
[	Current Mood	|	confused	]
[	Current Music	|	Ben Folds.	]

note: if you're taking these, tell me cause I have the bigger versions.

seth and gabby.


steve <3


steve <3


seth.


seth and gabby.


seth.


me and steve <3


seth and gabby.


alex & kate.





gabby.


alex, steve & kate.


christina.


steve.




alex.

[	Current Mood	|	excited	]
[	Current Music	|	Broken Glass Syndrome - Halifax	]

is going to be WICKED.

[	Current Location	|	Kate's	]
[	Current Mood	|	stressed	]
[	Current Music	|	Ani	]

Okay, well I've been feeling really on edge lately.
I don't know why.. I don't know if its because my real
first love has a new girlfriend now, and i feel like im not
good enough for anyone now or whether its because
one of my best friends has been freaking out on me because
of something i say in the wrong tone. 

i

dont

^know.

sometimes i feel like i just dont belong in maine.
and don't get me wrong i love love love the people here
but i dont know what to do, i might die if i stay here in
maine. i don't want to be here. i want to be where i feel wanted.
this summer has been sucking. but for good news, one of my best
friends from florida might be coming up, and his mom doesnt really
care. so thats pretty good, my ex boyfriend has been kind of bothering
me lately.. dont ask. i dont know. i feel sick.

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Drivers date is July 3rd for my lisence.
I hope I fucking pass.